More Than Fine

"More Than Fine", by Switchfoot

When I wake in the morning,
I want to blow into pieces.
I want more than just ok, more than just ok.
When I'm up with the sunrise
I want more than just blue skies.
I want more than just ok, more than just ok.

I'm not giving up, giving up, not giving up now.
I'm not giving up, giving up, not backing down.

More than fine, more than bent on getting by.
More than fine, more than just ok.

When I'm lit with the sunrise.
I want more than just a good time.
I want more than just ok, more than just ok.

I'm not giving up, giving up, not giving up now.
I'm not giving up, giving up, not selling out.

More than fine, more than bent on getting by.
More than fine, more than just ok.
More than fine, more than bent on getting by.
More than fine, more than just ok.

More than oceans away from the dawn.
More than oceans away from the dawn.
More than oceans away from who we are
More than oceans, more than oceans, yeah.

More than fine, more than bent on getting by.
More than fine, more than just ok.
More than fine, more than bent on getting by.
More than fine, more than just ok.

This is how I feel today/lately... Not awful (despite some tough circumstances going on right now), but wondering if there is more than just ok...more than just getting by...

Why do I feel just "ok" though? My guess is it's my sinful, selfish nature coming out. I mean, sure, one could look at my criteria right now and say, "You have every right to only be 'ok' right now...in fact, ok is pretty good!", but for some reason I don't feel like that's "it". I think that God has so much more for us..."more than oceans" (that's a bunch if you really step back and ponder...). I mean, heck, Christ's death and resurrection alone to pay for my sins should be enought to make my entire life one gigantic woohoo! But for some reason, that doesn't feel like enough at times...to quote some different lyrics, like sometimes I "still haven't found what I'm looking for" (even though Bono shares his faith in God's Kingdom, etc...but still feels lost sometimes...).

I want oceans. I want more than fine.

But what does that mean? Material things? I doubt that...even though my human side gan "go there" if not careful. An easy life? Again, probably not the point. But what?

http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?
book_id=50&chapter=10&verse=9&end_verse=11&version=31&context=context
9I am the gate; whoever enters through me will be saved.[a] He will come in and go out, and find pasture. 10The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.

11"I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep.***John 10:9-11 (NIV)

"...life, and have it to the full."

I need to really ponder that one and ask God to really show me what that means. And my guess is: I probably already know...in some way or fashion...I just too easily forget, or am too easily swayed to doubt, or just let the "me" in me take over too much.

Bottom line: God has given me life, a good, no, GREAT life. I eat. I stay warm...cool...dry... I have friends to share life with. A wonderful family. And most of all, a redeemer, savior, and king: Jesus. It can be tough, it can be rough, but ultimately I am more than fine...I am God's kid! Now, what more, really, do I need to realize God has blessed more than I even can fathom? Given more mercy? Given more love?

Oh God, my heart cries out to LIVE this realization! I am yours!